Post Holiday Slump

I got my period on 1/4, so today is......cd10. I don't know what's going on but I have no desire to have sex. Maybe it's because of all the weight I've gained?? I don't know. I was thisclose to going to the dr. to get some adipex but, I cancelled. I'm going to try to lose this on my own the good old trusty way, hitting the treadmill. Hopefully I'll get pregnant this month or next. If on March 1st I'm still not, then I'll go get me some magic potion from dr. miracle worker.

I have no libido and no energy. I've been looking into supplements, maybe I need to start taking iron? It's worth a try. I'm going to bet some iron and b12. Maybe that will do the trick...........

Another year, another fb pregnancy anouncement.

Not mine of coarse One of his ex girlfriends. It was an unplanned pregnancy. Bitch. But, I'm happy for her. Of coarse I am.

I have many big plans for 2012. Honestly, a baby isn't one I'm counting on anymore. I want to finish the fence, and buy a backhoe, and start the house, buy a work truck and a personal truck. It all involves lots of $$$$. It means a lot of work on my part but, I'm ready for it. Out with the old and in with the new!

Here's to making my dreams come true :)

Maybe I'll get a Christmas miracle??? Probably not.

Christmas is just a few days away and I'm still not finished with my shopping ('cause I'm broke)! I've gained about 15 pounds over the past few months. I guess I can blame it on the holidays but, the truth is I'm a stress eater. I'm pretty sure I ovulated last night or this morning but, we got into a little argument so...no baby making going on here. But, in 2 weeks guess who will be spending every extra $$ on pregnancy tests??

Idiot on aisle 7.

That's gonna be me!

Merry Christmas. Ho. Ho. Ho.

It's Such A Cruel World :(

So, it's Cd3 today. My cycle was 38 days this (last?) month. I was beginning to let myself believe I was pregnant. I went to the store and bought a prenancy test. Of coarse I couldn't wait to get home to test so, I went into the restroom to do it.

As I was testing...right in the middle of poas...I got my period.

The worst part is that even thought I was obviously not pregnant, I was still squinting and looking for invisible lines!!!

Sometimes I think that this world is just too cruel. Why are there kids dying of hunger, abused, murdered, neglected, and many other horrible things. Everyday babies that are addicted to crack are born. So many horrible things happen to children because their parents let it happen or cause it themselves. I would never EVER do anything to harm my children yet, I can't get pregnant. Meanwhile, so many women that don't deserve to be alive much less become mothers are getting pregnant. Why? Why? WHY???

Then......

I remind myself.....

Everyday there are children dying of cancer and other tragic situations as well. My 2 children are safe, warm, happy, and loved. I shouldn't ask for more.

Right????

9/1-CD1

42 day cycle. Nice. What else can I say.

Lets hope for a July baby.......................

CD 39 WTH!!!!!

What is going on with my body??

CD 39, negative pregnancy test.

Of coarse.

Now what????

cd 34

So I've spent way to much money on pt's this week all of which have turned up 1 freaking line. It's taking all that I've got not go out and buy a fresh pack right now. If I could afford it I would go to a doctor but, we have way to much going on right now.

We're moving to the ranch next week! I'm spending way too much money on decorating. Not to mention all of the utility deposits and other neccesary stuff. I have to focus on something other than peeing on way too expensive plastic sticks!!!