Here We Go Again

CD1, "only" 8 days late. I was hopeful again, I tested about 30 times..........again.

I'm in a dark and sad place right now. My baby was to be born August 14. The closer I get to the date the harder it's becoming. I'll remember him always. I'll cry for him always. I feel myself getting lost in this sadness. I can't talk to anyone about it because no one seems to understand.

I should be out buying extra blankets and baby wipes.