CD 39 WTH!!!!!

What is going on with my body??

CD 39, negative pregnancy test.

Of coarse.

Now what????

cd 34

So I've spent way to much money on pt's this week all of which have turned up 1 freaking line. It's taking all that I've got not go out and buy a fresh pack right now. If I could afford it I would go to a doctor but, we have way to much going on right now.

We're moving to the ranch next week! I'm spending way too much money on decorating. Not to mention all of the utility deposits and other neccesary stuff. I have to focus on something other than peeing on way too expensive plastic sticks!!!

Today would have been the day. Updated.

My baby should be here now. Today should have been one of the happiest days of my life. I made it through the day without crying. But, all day long no matter what I was doing I was thinking about what should have been.

And then............

My sister in law calls me to tell me she is pregnant again. After 2 weeks of trying.

9 Days

I should be getting ready to welcome my third baby. Not sitting here crying about my loss. How will I get through this week? Why must life be so hard...........................

Here We Go Again

CD1, "only" 8 days late. I was hopeful again, I tested about 30 times..........again.

I'm in a dark and sad place right now. My baby was to be born August 14. The closer I get to the date the harder it's becoming. I'll remember him always. I'll cry for him always. I feel myself getting lost in this sadness. I can't talk to anyone about it because no one seems to understand.

I should be out buying extra blankets and baby wipes.

CD 1

I'm not gonna lie, I'm dissapointed :(

CD 2

I spent about $60 this week on pregnancy tests! I could have sworn on Thursday that I saw a very light line on 2 of them. Just when I had convinced myself that I was possibly pregnant (I had even googled my due date)......AF shows up! On Friday the 13th no less.

It's ok. I'm ok with it actually. It's the waiting and waiting and waiting that drives me nuts! I mean a 35 day cycle?!? Now that I know that I'm not preggo I can get back to normal.. No stressing about whether what I'm doing or eating could cause a miscarriage. I'm not ready emotionally anyway.

PS. Business is GREAT!!!